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[jspencer1986]

Hmm okay, so I told my Year 11/12 English teacher that I fell hard for her within the first few months she was teaching me. Mind you I graduated last year so it's been almost 2 years since then. I told her in an email yesterday afternoon and had a reply by last night. Strangely enough she said it didnt freak her out and that frankly she was surprised I didnt say anything sooner. Go figure right?

Her and I were best of friends back when I was going to school. We would stay behind and talk for ages after class, then I'd walk her to her staffroom and drop her off safe and sound - to her boyfriend. She was the first to know I was trans, and the first to tell me it wasn't going to be easy but she would be behind me all the way. She was amazing.

Anyway after I got her email last night, I decided it was time I emailed her back again and said everything I always wanted to say but never thought I'd have the chance. I told her what I thought about her, how everything I did seemed more important when I was with her and how when she said she was proud of me it was the first time I really believed it. Corny I know - but all true. So anyways now I am playing the waiting game to see if she even has the guts to reply back and tell me what she thinks of it all. Hopefully she will, because it's a bitch not knowing, and even if it's bad news it's better than being left hanging like I am now.

And in other news, Reid's party was sweet as. Meeting all the boys was fantastic and for the first time in ages I finally felt like I belonged somewhere. Simon - he's a madman, gotta love him. Jim, Heath, Hunter - all total legends, I can't wait to see more of those guys. Paige - totally awesome sense of humour (Next time I'm bringing the salsa dip :P). Reid - he's a great guy, and so hilarious when he's drunk. And Jye - well, Jye knows he's my boy all the way. So all in all, great night, great people, great time.

Peace.

Comments

re. the first part fo your post..

[pinocchioj.livejournal.com]

wow, that's an incredible amount of bravery.. hope you get a good reply :)

Re: re. the first part fo your post..

[boi4eliza.livejournal.com]

Thanks...I'm still playing the waiting game - which I'm not sure is a good thing since it only took her a few hours to reply to the first email and it's been a whole day this time around. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, she probably hasn't even checked her emails yet. I need a hug :(

[hunterfagboi.livejournal.com]

i think i missed the salsa dip joke...

[boi4eliza.livejournal.com]

Did you miss the part of the evening where none of the boys could open the Salsa dip? We were all complaining that we would be very hurt if Paige could do it and a room full of trannyboys couldn't. It seemed funny at the time *shrugs*

[hunterfagboi.livejournal.com]

oh yeah duh *slapping forhead*
i'm blonde... really....