James

I just finished watching 'Fucking Amal' (aka 'Show Me Love') for the third time. It's a Swedish movie about two young girls living in a small town. Agnes doesn't have any friends and is constantly being teased at school, and has been in love with the popular girl, Elin, who drinks and parties with an older crowd. Agnes barely registers in Elin's mind, until the night she ends up going to Agnes' birthday party on a whim, and being dared to kiss her. From then on it's a struggle for her to come to terms with the fact that she has feelings for another girl.

Anyway, I saw this movie twice about 5 or 6 years ago, and at that stage my thought pattern ended at "Awesome! They're making out!". Watching it now, it means a lot more to me. Even though it was all in Swedish, having to read the subtitles didn't take away from the quality of the movie, and a lot of the time I felt that the subtitles weren't even entirely necessary. It was less about what was being said and more about the emotion behind it, and both of the actresses did an amazing job at conveying that. Especially my favourite of the two, Alexandra Dahlstrom. Look at the pretty:



What can I say? I have a thing for tomboys.

So anyway, if you're a fan of lesbians and foreign films (or even just lesbians - I don't normally like foreign films) then I would recommend Fucking Amal. It's beautiful.

Woo. Mum and I went to the pub last night and won $2000. Excellent.

I'm not sure I like having my cousins baby around so much now. I'm getting too comfortable with the idea of having kids. Yesterday we took my cousin out to do some shopping for her birthday, so I pretty much looked after the baby for most of the day. I originally didn't want much to do with this kid for fear that I'd get used to it and actually want one of my own sooner than I could possibly have one. And now, I'm at the stage where I like holding her and feeding her and putting her to sleep. It's the cutest thing when she snuggles into me. But I don't want to think that. Yesterday, she was starting to cry when my mum was holding her, so I took her and she stopped right away. The girls at the hairdressers were giving me adoring (and somewhat annoying) 'awww, cute daddy' looks. Anyway, just something to think on.

Hmm. I think I've watched Fingersmith maybe 25 times now. I watch it before I go to bed, or if I'm really tired, just watch my favourite parts. God, how I love that film. If this isn't enough to make everyone think I'm insane, then how's this: I have audio clips from the film on my mp3 player that I listen to while I'm trying to fall asleep. The soft sounds of the words and the way Elaine and Sally say them, the cute accents...it just makes me feel...I don't really know what. Anyway, enough for now.

My sister has some COOL friends. Seriously, these girls dry-hump each other and pretend to make out on camera. Imagine what they'd do if the camera was OFF.

So anyway, as pedantic as I normally am about my hair, I'm trying to grow it a bit. I have to try really hard not to get annoyed and complain about it getting shaggy because it's my choice to try to do this, but I used to get my hair cut once a month so it's hard to get used to it being so scruffy.

Also, I'm probably going to dye it black. It's been black before, but that was when it was short. I'm sort of interested in trying out the whole emo thing - you know...without all the wrist-slitting and tight pants. Plus, my sister has a lot of hot friends who would totally dig me if I was emo. Whatever.

I just finished watching the 2nd episode of season 2 of South of Nowhere. OK. So, Ashley was a bitch for a great deal of the episode (only to Kyla and Aiden, not to Spencer), but there was a kiss that totally made up for it. Seriously, that kiss should have its own spin-off. It was Teh Cute. So, I'm totally grateful to the people who keep putting the episodes up on the Spencer & Ashley forum so soon after they air. I thought I was going to have to wait another few months until I could download them, but thanks to the wonderful folks over at the forum, there's no need for that.

Aside from that (I know this is like the third post today but whatever) I've decided to recap the icons I have made so far. There are only 20 so I put them all together. 5 of them were actually animated, but I just used the first image in the sequence for the collage.



I have actually made 2 more, a Chad Michael Murray icon for my sister (it says 'The Chad' hehe) and a Mary Kate Olsen one for my brothers fiance, but I don't have copies of those. Wish I had a copy of the Chad one though, for some reason the way I designed it reminds me of an old blue Cadillac. But anyway.

I'm tired and I wanna go to sleep.

I just finished reading Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe by Fannie Flagg. And I watched the film with my mum for about the 8th time last night.

Like most other novels-turned-film, there were a lot of things that were left out of the movie, and some parts of the story were completely different. Ages, timelines, the way certain events took place, who was there when different things happened. Anyway, I was impressed by the novel nonetheless. It made me feel happy when they were happy, sad when they were sad, and nervous as a schoolboy with a crush during any Idgie/Ruth moments. That ability to invoke emotion is definitely one of the most important things I look for in a book, and this one most certainly delivered.

I'm still pushing through Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, but next on my reading list just has to be Fingersmith. I watched it again the other night while my mum was playing around on the computer and by about 10 minutes in she had to come watch it with me. She was hooked. So I wouldn't mind reading the novel just to see what it's like. I'm sure I'll love it.

Also, I watched Catch That Kid on TV the other night and I was kind of impressed. It was a cool movie. Jennifer Beals is not entirely what I would call a great actor, but at least she didn't annoy me. And from this experience came Actress Crush #323545654745: Kristen Stewart.

Yes folks, I know she's only 16, but I only have the mentality of a 16 year old so it's ok. Promise. Plus, she plays a lot of tomboyish roles. It's cute. Look at the pretty...



And I made a shiny new icon out of it (and I also made the shiny Serenity one I'm using at this very second)...



The words aren't meant to be legible, but they say 'I got cute to spare - Kristen Stewart'. It isn't a quote from her, just something I thought about her when I was making the icon. 'Cause, hello?!

Anyway, I'm in the icon making mood now so this pedophile boy is off to make him some pretty new ones, featuring Miss Kristen.

I have the Fingersmith DVD on order. All I have seen are clips of it from YouTube, but so far I love, love, LOVE what I see.

The sex scenes are hot too (if not a little short).

This has given a little faith back to me. I was starting to think that there were no good lesbian movies left that I hadn't seen.

I will confess I don't like ordering DVD's though. I'm impatient and when I find something I really want, I like to have it yesterday, and not have to wait a week to get it.

Also - 20 days until I turn 20.

John, I'm sorry I wasn't online yesterday. I slept through my alarm and only woke up at the time I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE LEAVING FOR WORK. I *should* be online today sometime, but I'm not certain. I might get to talk to you then. I am definitely replying to your email BECAUSE IT WAS AMAZING. If I don't get to talk to you beforehand, I have Friday and Saturday off so I might get to talk to you sometime then. Well, Thursday/Friday for you.

Some of my favourite little snippets from the SUNDAY Q&A:

Jewel: I had a little blue elephant...a little stuffed elephant, with a nose, and then my mother has this little Yorkshire Terrier dog, and the dog made the elephant it's bitch...

Jonathan: I had a doll named Tom. [Insert random description of Tom]. And you could feed him, and he would pee...out of his little penis.

Jewel: [On the phone to her mother] Ok, I gotta go, I'll call you back when I'm drunk.

It's official, I'm going to make an icon of Jewel's butt.

Before anything else, I'd like to take a moment to express my utter amazement at HOW FUCKING STUPID THE CROWD CAN GET AT A CONCERT. There was pushing and shoving, it was a complete fucking sauna, people were packing in so tightly that many others couldn't breathe, and one girl even passed out from the heat. Seriously, 3 security guards had to pull her out of the pit. Hell, 2 songs from the end, I had to go get water to stop MYSELF from passing out, it was really that hot. The girls were good about it though, they told people to spread out, they were like "It's getting kinda warm up here...you guys must be so hot!". And after 2 fucking rad punk rock support acts, it smelled REALLY BAD. There was this gay guy in front of us who was all sweaty and disgusting and totally fangirling the second support group, Repeat Offender. Granted, they were good, but this guy was sweating like I've never seen anyone sweat before. Gross.

This is going to be huge (I'm commenting on EVERY SONG), with pics and all, so it's going under a cut. I suppose it could be summed up as OMGTHEVERONICASROCKIWANTTHEMTOHAVEMYLITTLEGAYBABIES. But please, have a read of my 'review' (read: masses of fanboyish comments and compliments all pointing to the Veronicas being completely and utterly nothing but awesome).

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I just watched a completely weird movie called Pretty Persuasions.The ultimate scene for me was the scene where Evan Rachel Wood was going down on, then making out with, Jane Krakowski. SO HOT.

Anyway, just needed to post about it to get it out of my head.

I haven't slept in 43 hours.

The whole 10 hours I was at work tonight, all I could think about was South of Nowhere. Ok, just Spencer and Ashley. Seriously, I came home and realised I had drawn a bunch of variations of their names (and my own nicknames for them) all over my left arm. It's just all the little things about them that reel me in. The way they look at each other, the way they talk, the way Gabrielle Christian already has a signature move for Spencer (the Spencer Head Tilt) for when she's feeling shy or if she doesn't understand something. I swear, my firstborn will be named Spencer. Boy or girl, it doesn't matter. And if my wife doesn't like it, too bad. I've made up my mind. Besides, I've never even met (or heard of, for that matter) an Australian named Spencer.

Ashley makes me swoon. She plays tough, but really she's just scared and doesn't know how to handle it any other way. I want to cuddle her until she forgets every last insecurity she's ever had. Then I want to cuddle her some more. I've watched the last episode, 'What Just Happened', like 6 times now, and every time I watch it I choke up at this Ashley line: 'I want you. And I don't want to hurt you.'

So uhh, I think I need to get some sleep because otherwise you will NEVER hear the end of my incessant SoN commentary. Hehe, SPASHLEY.