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OMG I'm so totally seeing HP and the GoF tomorrow!! I never thought I would be excited to say that. Although, to be fair, it was originally just the temptation of a cute underage girl with an English accent that lured me in so I think I can be forgiven for falling in love with the HP phenomenon.

I just went through and read back over my entire journal (which isnt that long) and I realise I have completely changed since my first post. If nothing else, I'm much more easily pissed off these days :-P

But I've definitely seen some change in the way I see relationships too. I used to be the kind of person that thought I needed to be with someone, or be in love with someone to be happy. Even when I was totally miserable because the person I wanted didnt want me, I was still pretty happy because, lets face it, I was getting what I wanted. And what I wanted was an excuse to feel something. An excuse to get emotional, whether that be in a good way or a bad way. Only recently have I changed in that sense. I don't feel like I need somebody else to define me anymore. A big part of that was talking to John again. He makes me feel like I'm worth something, even when certain things in my life aren't going well.

Back then I was happy because I was miserable. These days I'm just happy. I'm moving up in the world. Thanks brother, I owe you more than you know.

Oh. My. God.

I finally saw it. HP4.

Now I feel like a dizzy ninth-grader with a schoolboy crush.

When Emma walked down those stairs and smiled, I couldn't breathe. She looked amazing. And while it is quite painfully obvious that she will never be interested in me, I'd have to be blind, deaf, dumb and crazy not to be completely and utterly in love with everything she is and everything she does.

Yes, I realise I am talking about an actress who lives halfway across the globe (or, with Hermione in mind, a fictional character), and someone who is quite possibly too young for me. But thats the strange thing about me - I just don't care.

You may think I'm insane, but at least I'm happy. And as long as Harry Potter is around I'll continue to be a happy little crazy man.

*sigh* If only she knew what she does to all the little boys...



Is that not TEH CUTEST THING EVER?! John, back me up here buddy!