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I got bored last night so I decided to do some drawing. It's just a freehand pencil drawing of something that's got my interest at the moment :-P

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So, yeah. There it is. I can't draw actual pictures for shit, but I have always had a love for drawing words and trying out new fonts and such. And shading, I love shading. Anywho, just wanted to record this somewhere. Later days.
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Is it wrong that I can read a story about a girl being raped, and still give it merit for its writing style?
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And in true "every terrible movie needs a terrible sequel" fashion, here it is, ladies and gents.

Lesbian Pedophile: The Sequel.

This is the story of a sheltered teenage girl, and the crush that leads her onto a path of self-discovery. Emma is 15 years old, and still her conservative parents hire a sitter to watch her while they are out of town. Harmless fun soon turns to passion as the two get close in ways they never imagined they would.

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Somebody please take away my editing privileges...
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What can I say? I got bored :-)

Theirs is a story of forbidden love.

Katherine Hartford (Jodie Foster, Flight Plan) is a 29-year-old Lawyer, whose caseload is almost solely comprised of pedophiles and child molesters. But when she meets Jessica (Kristen Stewart, The Safety of Objects, Catch That Kid), a 15-year-old girl with a passion for law and older women, she is forced to rethink her career and the way she views her clients. As she falls fast and hard for Jess, Katherine must decide which is more important: work or love.

Not coming to any cinemas anywhere near you ever, the heartwarming tale 'Lesbian Pedophile: A Love Story'.

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I just completed my very first entire run-through of every Buffy episode ever made.

I've now seen every episode, and it's actually made me really sad. Well, sad in a way. I don't really know what to feel. There are never going to be any new episodes. Anya is gone (which I knew was going to happen but it's so much more real, and hits you so much more when you know every piece of backstory there is to know). We'll never get to see Willow and Kennedy's home-made pornos (which is the one thing that kills me more than all else). Faith had sex with not just a MAN (she was MEANT to be a dyke), but a school PRINCIPAL, and an ugly one at that. Buffy and Faith will never be together, except in my dreams - and in the fanfiction of half the worlds population.

I have mixed feelings about the fact that it's really over. I know most other people went through this stage a few years ago, but this is new to me. It'll take time to deal with.
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Sandra's funeral was today. Her husband only called my mum and dad YESTERDAY, when he knew they lived 6 hours away and would need a little time to sort things to get down for it. My parents were on the list of people to be contacted when she died, but it would have been nice for him to call them sooner. My mum won't stop crying. I hate this.

The only thing that made my mum a little happier was when I told her I was going to try to come visit her in 3 weeks time. I was going to go up and surprise her but she started talking about coming down at some stage near their payday in March and it was too close to when I wanted to come up, so I thought I had better tell her. She's happy about getting to see me either way.

Also, I started writing a new song, and I'm having major trouble linking the chorus I have with any sort of chord structure for a verse. Everything seems like its been done before. I hate feeling so unoriginal.

GOD. My mum just told me some more bad news. Another friend of ours just got diagnosed with a brain disease called Picks Disorder. They give her about 5 years, which sounds like a long time, but can you think about how fast the last 5 years have flown? Exactly. It all goes by too fast. And then everything you once had was gone, and everything you knew...well, you're just not sure of it any more.
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Dear Miss Granger,

It has come to our attention that yourself and Mr Potter are harboring unresolved sexual tension.

It is understood that these feelings will not 'just go away' and further action is required if you wish to remain a student at Hogwarts. Supressed feelings can be dangerous, both to yourself and those around you, as any such tension caused by this supression may cloud your ability to be clear-headed in the fight against he-who-must-not-be-named.

A similar letter has been forwarded by owl to Mr Potter, detailing the seriousness of this issue. It is required that both of you get rid of Mr Weasley by any means necessary, and from then on, have lots and lots of (very public) sex. If these requirements are not met, we reserve the right to seize your wand and/or terminate your enrollment at Hogwarts Academy until further notice.

It was not our wish to take such a harsh approach, but it was apparent that without such action both Mr Potter and yourself would never admit your feelings.


Albus Dumbledore
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I've been listening to country music...for 10 hours. I used to watch CMT on cable all the time in the late 90's and I've noticed that I much preferred all the music being brought out back then to the stuff being brought out now. Don't get me wrong, all the artists that were around back then are still bringing out great stuff, and probably will until they retire from their music careers, but most (not all, but MOST) of the new country music artists being released these days aren't bringing out more than one song that is anything worth listening to.

Let's go back to the old favourites - Garth Brooks, Shania Twain, Clay Walker, Trisha Yearwood, Mindy Mcready, River Road (if anybody knows where I can find a copy of the song Nickajack, it would be most appreciated), Brooks and Dunn, Dixie Chicks, Keith Urban, Sherrie Austin, Terri Clark, Jo Dee Messina, Martina McBride, Tim McGraw (pre-Nelly)...

I mean, jeez, there were so many great artists out in the 90's, and while they're all still making great music, the next generation just sucks beyond the telling of it. It doesn't give die hard country fans much hope for the future. I write a lot of country songs, and the stuff I write is better than half the stuff they're publishing these days. It's ridiculous really, when an amateur can write and perform better than the vast majority of the people getting record deals.

It's a shame but it's true. The country music scene has been left to house the awkward lyrics and half-hearted melodies of todays country music, and I'll mourn the loss of the greats when they've been completely phased out by their raw, untalented successors.

Can you tell I'm passionate about country music?
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C'mon people! The only thing anyone is writing at the Flyfic site is Jayne/Simon. Not that that isnt a quite legitimate (and sometimes nicely erotic) pairing, its just that NOBODY is writing good Kaylee fics...whether that be Kaylee/Inara, or Kaylee/River. I dont mind either way but it just doesnt seem like there is enough good Kaylee fic out there. C'mon people, do your bit to help my life be a little more bearable. Gimme the sexy fics!
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Basically I'm writing (or trying to write) a screenplay. Take the storyline of Star Wars, the characters of How High, the pay-outs of Not Another Teen Movie and the stupidity of Dude, Where's My Car and you'll come somewhere close to what this movie will be like. My flatmate and I are thinking of pitching the completed script to a film company.

I got my second T shot yesterday, Matt gave it to me in Gale's office to make sure he had the technique down, and from now on he can administer my shots at home. There haven't been any significant changes as of yet, but at 2 weeks I didnt expect anything anyway. I've had a slight increase in sex drive (which kicked in about 3 days after my first shot and died down again about 2 days before my second shot), and a slight drop in my voice, which my flatmates actually informed me of. Once they said something about it I tried singing a song I had trouble with before going on T and actually had no trouble hitting the low notes. I was surprised at this because I thought the voice would take a lot longer to start changing. Oh yeah and my face seems to be getting slightly oilier.

Gale has me on Doxylin tablets for my acne *just remembered I didnt take one today...oops, thats the first time I've forgotten* and they seem to be working well so far, my acne is definitely getting under control.

In other news, I've been talking a lot to a girl named Steph who lives about 6 hours north of me (up near my parents) and a friend of hers, Kim. I've been talking to Steph for a few months now and I told her a few nights ago that I'm not biologically male. Now, her family is religious and I was worried about her reaction but she was great. She said it doesnt make me any less of a man to her and she respected me enough not to say anything to Kim so that I may tell her when I see fit. I was a bit taken aback though when Kim asked me out the other night...she thinks I'm a really sweet guy (even though I still sound like I'm 11 years old), but I had to turn her down. I'm not ready for a relationship, especially not a long distance relationship. All that aside, I feel the need for that closeness with someone because at the moment I'm just starting transition and I'm finding it to be a slightly lonely and isolating experience. By no means am I unhappy, I'm just lonely I think.

On a happier note, I had the night off work tonight. Me and the boys sat around listening to music, drinking and playing cards. It was bloody great.


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"I don't want to fall to pieces,
I just want to sit and stare at you -
I don't want to talk about it.
And I don't want a conversation,
I just want to cry in front of you -
I don't want to talk about it
Cause I'm in love with you."
- Avril Lavigne, 'Fall to Pieces'

Ever heard a song that says everything you have been trying to find the words to say?

Avril seems to have that effect for me. Aside from the fact that I can listen to both of her albums without feeling the need to skip past a song, the good thing about Avril is that she has a plain simple way of saying everything you always felt like saying but didnt know how.

Even if you can't say it directly to the person you want to, at least you would know how to say it if you ever had the guts.

Oh yeah, I sent Jye another text tonight. Since he wasnt coming online tonight I thought I'd send him a nice message to take his mind off assignment stress. This is what i sent -

I'd hand to you the moon and sun,
To let you know that you're the one,
The one who makes life seem worthwhile,
And instead of crying, makes me smile :)
Miss u.

He thinks I'm a true romantic now :D

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I feel the urge to write. I have stories in my head and nowhere for them to go because they are so random. They don't belong anywhere. So I guess I'll put some here.

The Last Time
He poured his heart and soul into the letter that he wrote her, and wore a grim expression, hoping for the best while fearing the absolute worst. Fleeting visions of times past ran menacingly through his mind, embracing the dark corners and empty crevices of his consciousness. Memories of talking for hours, of how her scent still lingered in the air long after she'd gone, and the last time they touched. Then his final reverie, of ending their unspoken bond and walking from her while a solitary tear made it's journey down his cheek. Seconds turned to minutes, and minutes to hours, as he tried not to imagine what life was going to be like without her there to tell him everything would soon be alright.
Continued here, if you're still interested... )


I spose there really isn't that much else to say except I miss my boy and I want chicken.

October 2010

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