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Legend of the Seeker is a mighty awesome show.

So I wrote a song about it.

If you'd like to take a listen, you can download it here.

Lyrics under the cut. )


Please enjoy! And if you like it, share it around!

(And a big thankyou to [livejournal.com profile] jarrow for putting me out of my misery with that line that just wasn't happening :P)
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10. Be Here - Keith Urban
9. Ropin' The Wind - Garth Brooks
8. Sun, Dirt, Water - The Waifs
7. Hell Freezes Over - The Eagles
6. Anthology - The Beatles
5. The Burden - Mojo Webb
4. Infinity On High - Fall Out Boy
3. A Fever You Can't Sweat Out - Panic at the Disco
2. The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance
1. Pretty Odd - Panic at the Disco

For now anyway...
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Just got back from Brisbane, packing up all my stuff, bringing my DVD's/CD's home. I'm tired and cranky and just generally shot.

I have about $170 to last me until I a)get a job, or b)get my bond back from my old flatmates. DALLAS, if I can't come up with any money in the next 4 days, I won't be able to get back to Brisbane for the Panic! concert, and if that happens I'd like to send the ticket back to you so that you can at least enjoy the concert and let me know how it was. I was really looking forward to it and I'm trying to figure something out but please let me know your address just in case.
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Oh The Line, how I love you...

Jess: Hello? *sighs* Johnny Depp I told you to stop calling me on this phone...
Lisa: Is he STILL harrassing you?
Jess: I know...

AND OMG. They got their name from Heathers. They are SO LESBIAN.

So why did Ryan Cabrera choose one twin over the other?

Lisa: I'm just more charming, really.

I NEED to find a way to order the Online Only Special Edition Autographed CD with Behind The Scenes DVD, 2 bonus tracks, a poster, and an Archie comic featuring the girls. Mum? Dad? Credit card? What's the American exchange rate like? JOHN. WESTON. PAMELA. GET IT FOR ME. Or don't.

I hate Ryan Cabrera. He gets to kiss Lisa over and over in his video. GRR.
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Before anything else, I'd like to take a moment to express my utter amazement at HOW FUCKING STUPID THE CROWD CAN GET AT A CONCERT. There was pushing and shoving, it was a complete fucking sauna, people were packing in so tightly that many others couldn't breathe, and one girl even passed out from the heat. Seriously, 3 security guards had to pull her out of the pit. Hell, 2 songs from the end, I had to go get water to stop MYSELF from passing out, it was really that hot. The girls were good about it though, they told people to spread out, they were like "It's getting kinda warm up here...you guys must be so hot!". And after 2 fucking rad punk rock support acts, it smelled REALLY BAD. There was this gay guy in front of us who was all sweaty and disgusting and totally fangirling the second support group, Repeat Offender. Granted, they were good, but this guy was sweating like I've never seen anyone sweat before. Gross.

This is going to be huge (I'm commenting on EVERY SONG), with pics and all, so it's going under a cut. I suppose it could be summed up as OMGTHEVERONICASROCKIWANTTHEMTOHAVEMYLITTLEGAYBABIES. But please, have a read of my 'review' (read: masses of fanboyish comments and compliments all pointing to the Veronicas being completely and utterly nothing but awesome).

The Secret Life Of... )
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With GoF bought, Hermione thoroughly laughed, sighed, giggled and cried over, and work almost over for the week, the only thing left to comment on is...

OH YES. This morning my mother bought and paid for my tickets TO THE VERONICAS. I'm the happiest man ALIVE.

I'm not sure what the concert setup is (seating, standing room only, a mix of both), but WHO CARES?! I get to see two of the most amazingly gorgeous women in the history of anything EVER. LIVE. IN CONCERT. And, unlike the anxiety I felt when I was going to see Avril as to whether or not she would be good live, I just feel confident and happy about this one because every live Veronicas track I have heard is PERFECT.

So, umm...ok. I'm done delivering all my exposition THE SAME WAY.

*does the snoopy dance*
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*girly squeal*


I love my mummy. I swear I will never be the same if I get to see those girls in person. I'll be a completely different (possibly improved, definitely aroused) man. I SWEAR.

In other awesome news, I'm getting the GoF DVD today, and I'm going to make sweet, sweet love to it watch it as soon as I get it home. I had Rick's sister, Nicole, over yesterday. It's kind of strange that she wants to come over to see me more often now that he's gone. We watched PoA, because OMG SHE'D NEVER SEEN IT. She loved it, but not as as much as I do every time I watch it. Oh, The Punch. Oh, The Slap. Oh, The Smirk. OH, THE LOVE.

Excuse me while I melt.
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There are no words for how much I love the Veronicas 'When It All Falls Apart'. I enjoy the whole song, but the bridge is what really seals the deal for me. When I hear Jess and Lisa sing the lines 'Can't it be easier, can't I just change my mind? / 'Cause it just seems to go bad every time' my mind goes somewhere else, somewhere better than anywhere I've ever been. The way they sing, their harmonies, it's all just beautiful. I can't explain it. It's sort of like the feeling I get when I walk alone down a quiet street late in the afternoon, looking up at the sky. Or the feeling I get when rain is coming and I can smell the dirt in the air. I love that. There is certain beauty in anything that can make me feel things so completely indescribable. It's peace. It's innocence. It's silence. It's serenity. It's like being asleep, yet fully aware of my surroundings, more aware than I've ever been of anything. THAT is beauty.
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This afternoon I had a meeting with my supervisor and my boss to ask them for more money. At this point in time, I am the lowest earner in our entire operation (everyone else is on at least $12 an hour - I'm on little more than $9), and if I want chest surgery any time in the next 10 years I really needed to do something about the pay situation.

So after my supervisor criticizes me and tells me "You can't just ask for more money because you spend too much, or there's something you want to buy", and my boss flat out says that when I'm unsupervised on night shifts, he believes I do absolutely nothing, they spend the next half hour insulting me about the way I do my job. Then they have a bitch about the fact that my finances should be my problem, not theirs, and basically tell me I should just stay home any time I'm not working. Then they insult me some more. Then they pretty much give me the "we'll talk it over and check the figures and get back to you" brush-off.

I feel so lost and out of place. I'm so angry all the time. Little things really upset and annoy me. I just don't know where I belong anymore. I thought I was in the right place, in terms of career choices, because I had a great environment for transitioning and a lot of great people around me, but after the fuck-arounds with my shifts, my pays and this meeting today, I'm just not sure. I was writing a few ideas for songs tonight and I realised that I'll never be happy doing anything but music. In fact, I don't know how I fooled myself into believing that I was actually happy in my job for so long. I NEED music in my life, it's who I am. It's a part of me, and when I'm not playing, I miss it fiercely. This is part of what I wrote tonight:

I work dead-end jobs
Just to get by
I'm so tired of making ends meet,
But there's one thing I know
When I'm not on that stage
I'm missing the music in me.

I need to do something to get into performing or songwriting SOON, otherwise I can see I'm going to go insane where I am. Something is wrong and I think I need some help. It's not right for a 19-year-old to be this jaded.
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I'm getting a kitten. In like 2 weeks. YAY! I'm still very indecisive on a name as yet, but I don't think I'll know exactly what to call him until I get him.

OOOH. By this time next week I will have in my big, manly hands, a sealed box of Serenity Trading Cards!! I'm so looking forward to that. I really don't want to open all of them at once, but I know what's going to end up happening. I'll get the box, open it up, open 2 or 3 packs and get so excited that I won't be able to stop myself opening the rest. I LOVE EBAY.

I watched D.E.B.S. when I got home from work last night. For about the hundredth time. I never get enough of that movie - Jordana Brewster is just too cute in that role. Sara Foster isn't so bad either. I used to have the original short film of D.E.B.S. on my computer, and I find it amusing that Lucy and Amy were played by Clare Kramer and Alex Brackenridge, who were both on Buffy at one time or another. Plus they make a totally hot couple. Anyway.

I've become obsessed with the song Barely Breathing by Duncan Sheik. I put it on repeat on my MP3 player and listen to it like 10 times in a row. I suppose I should learn to play it now.

Ok, well, I'm off to pay some bills and pay for my Serenity cards. Later days y'all.
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I've been to the movies 3 times in 2 days now. Sunday night, Rick and I went out to dinner together and then went to see Narnia. I have never read the books or seen the original movie, but this movie was definitely incentive to do so. Needless to say I enjoyed it a great deal. Although I did keep Ricky in fits of laughter with my comments throughout the movie. I'm really bad for doing that.

So anyway, yesterday I got totally bored and had nothing better to do so I went to see Just Like Heaven (hello, total romantic-comedy whore here...). I really wanted to see Rumour Has It but that doesn't start showing here until Thursday. So anyway, JLH was a cute movie. I like Reese Witherspoon. She's a great actress. It was kind of sad in parts, but what's a happy ending when there's no sad beginning?

Right after I got out of JLH, I checked the other movie times and it turned out The Family Stone was playing 20 minutes later so I had a quick drink then went to see that. This movie I loved. My mum's going to want to see this one - she's totally in love with Dermot Mulroney. This movie had a great story line, a little predictable, but enjoyable all the same. Plus, there was a cute deaf gay guy named Thad (played by Tyrone Giordano), Rachel McAdams and Claire Danes. I mean, 2 hot girls and a cute guy...what more would I want?

The only thing I didn't like about this movie was Sarah Jessica Parker. The casting was good for the film but I personally don't like her as an actor and had a hard time getting past that. Anyway, the movie was great. There were also a lot of sad parts in this one, but they were definitely essential to the movie.

Hmm. ok, so I have to go back to work today. That sucks. I hope my new glasses arrive today before I go. I'm so impatient.

Oh, yeah, I bought the new Keith Urban and Jo Dee Messina albums the other day and I love them. I'm especially in love with Making Memories and Tonight I Wanna Cry by Keith, and It's Too Late To Worry and Who's Crying Now by Jo Dee. I'm such a sucker.

Anywho, I'm out, I need food and to finish the tea Haydn made for me.

All in all, I feel comfortable and happy. I hope everybody else is feeling as good as I do. Peace y'all.
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I made the 7 hour motorbike ride up to my parents house today. Being so hot here, I didn't wear my motorbike jacket for fear of passing out from the heat. I used LOADS of sunscreen and reapplied like a bitch, but it didn't help. My arms, from my knuckles almost to the shoulder, as well as my legs from the knee down, are burnt BAD. I mean BAD. It's literally painful to move. I fear I may be spending Christmas Day sitting in one position getting drunk to block out the pain, but with any luck this gel stuff (for burns and sunburn) will help enough to make me at least half comfortable by then. I'm wearing jeans and a long sleeve shirt for the trip home obviously. There's no way I would be able to work in this state, never mind the fact that I feel like I want to kill myself it's so painful. I thought I was being a good boy, using senscreen (I usually wouldn't have even bothered), but I guess that shit just doesn't work.

I also go to the optometrist tomorrow to get my eyes tested. That may also be slightly challenging in my current immobile state. But I'm SERIOUSLY due for new glasses. I'll be ecstatic to finally have some new ones when I get them in a couple weeks time.

Anyway, since me hands are burnt it's getting quite painful to type, I'm going to put some gel on and pass out.

I'm so happy you liked your song, John. I don't write just for the sake of writing, I can only write when something inspires me deeply. So you should feel wonderful about the fact that you've become my inspiration. Enjoy the song, it's all for you, buddy.
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I've been listening to country music...for 10 hours. I used to watch CMT on cable all the time in the late 90's and I've noticed that I much preferred all the music being brought out back then to the stuff being brought out now. Don't get me wrong, all the artists that were around back then are still bringing out great stuff, and probably will until they retire from their music careers, but most (not all, but MOST) of the new country music artists being released these days aren't bringing out more than one song that is anything worth listening to.

Let's go back to the old favourites - Garth Brooks, Shania Twain, Clay Walker, Trisha Yearwood, Mindy Mcready, River Road (if anybody knows where I can find a copy of the song Nickajack, it would be most appreciated), Brooks and Dunn, Dixie Chicks, Keith Urban, Sherrie Austin, Terri Clark, Jo Dee Messina, Martina McBride, Tim McGraw (pre-Nelly)...

I mean, jeez, there were so many great artists out in the 90's, and while they're all still making great music, the next generation just sucks beyond the telling of it. It doesn't give die hard country fans much hope for the future. I write a lot of country songs, and the stuff I write is better than half the stuff they're publishing these days. It's ridiculous really, when an amateur can write and perform better than the vast majority of the people getting record deals.

It's a shame but it's true. The country music scene has been left to house the awkward lyrics and half-hearted melodies of todays country music, and I'll mourn the loss of the greats when they've been completely phased out by their raw, untalented successors.

Can you tell I'm passionate about country music?
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So...I know its been bloody ages since I posted to my journal. I've been completely and utterly slack. But, I'm starting again now for a pretty good reason.

I started T shots (250mg Primoteston Depot fortnightly) almost a week ago, on the 25th of July. From now on, I'll be keeping my journal updated regularly, for thoughts and such, and also as a "Progress Journal" of sorts. I can't wait to start seeing changes. My flatmate came to my appointment for my first shot and got instructed on how to administer the shots. On Monday the 8th of August he'll be coming to my second appointment and giving me my shot under my docs supervision. From then on he will be giving my shots fortnightly. No mucking around getting to doctors surgeries and such. Just a quick yell down the hall. Too easy mate.

I'll be taking voice clips and such, pictures of myself getting hairy (hopefully), and down the track a bit further, probably surgery pics too. I'm excited, yet at the same time, dont feel any different. I thought I'd feel different somehow after getting my first shot, not physically different but just a feeling. I dont know, its early days yet. But when it comes down to it, I'm already much happier.

So there you have it. I'll be counting down the days until shot number 2.


On a slightly less happy note - a friend of mine was killed in a car accident the day before my birthday, I went home for the funeral and it was a very sad affair. I've never been to the funeral of someone I've really cared about before and it hurt more than I expected it would.

Other than that, I've been out of touch with Sarah, the english teacher I confessed my undying love for a year ago. We emailed each other a couple times over the death of my friend but she doesnt seem interested in knowing me anymore. Its a sad thing considering she was such a huge part of my life not even 2 years ago, and that she had such a big impact on my life and helped shape me into who I am. Now I'll never get to thank her for making me a stronger, happier, more caring boy. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. Now I just find myself listening to her favourite song, London Still by The Waifs, over and over again; learning it for her like I always said I would but never had the time to before.

Anyway, she's not the only girl I've been in love with and she sure wont be the last, I just need to find a way to put Sarah's memories in my past and leave them there. Along with those of Lisa Y. I know my limits, and these are 2 women who will never love me in quite the same way as I do them.

Just curious now, how did "I'm so happy, I just started T" turn into "I'm lonely and need a hug coz the girls I fall for never love me back"??
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Yay its christmas and I'm home with my family.

I got my eyebrow pierced which was awesome...it didnt hurt and when i move it around a bit it tickles. I'm just happy to be home. Tomorrow I'm going out to a farm at Turkey Beach to celebrate and get drunk. The people that own the farm are the parents of a girl my mum works with. My brother is trying to crack onto this chick which I think is a little unfair since I saw her first :P

I've become completely and utterly obsessed with the whole Buffy the vampire slayer series and now own seasons 1-6 on DVD box set. Now I just have to get season 7 box sets. I also bought a buffy calendar. I want to get the whole set of collector cards and fridge magnets and action figures and the games and anything else i can get my hands on related to buffy. And Eliza Dushku as per usual.

But yeah. I go to see Dr Linnane in February, working so often has prevented me seeing him sooner. My boss Simon is really good about it all and because I have no transport, he said he would drive me there himself.

Actually I lie. I do have transport. I just recently bought a Suzuki VL250 Classic motorbike, but since I havent learned to ride it yet, it isnt much help to me.

By the way, Anthony Stewart Head (Tony Head to some people) who plays Giles on Buffy, is a wicked awesome singer/guitarist/pianist. The man can belt it out. Go Tony.
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*For the purpose of this entry being less confusing, Dave is my flatmate and David is the transguy*

So I ventured yesterday.

Hunter, Reid and I went into the Valley - or should I say the boys almost had to drag me, what with me hating buses and then almost being sick before I got to the dunnies at Ric's. I wasn't well at all. One of your mates was pretty spunky tho Hunter - the trannyboy that was wearing the red tshirt and the baseball cap I think it was? Anyways - totally spunky.

Simon's place was good, except I still wasn't feeling well and didnt want to throw up at his house so I didnt really move around a lot or whatever. I was pretty placid. And just to make the nausea worse than it already was - I was totally nervous about playing my songs for Simon. He's such a talented musician and I was a bit shy about it all. In the end he said he really liked and enjoyed my songs, but I was still nervous about them. Thats just me I guess.

I came home last night (care of Simon's marvellous driving skills) to find that the boys were going to the Glen. I waited up for a while coz they werent going for long. They rocked up home at 1am. They left home at 8. I was just getting to sleep when they got home, and Dave came and knocked on my window whispering "Jaaaaames...come out and plaaaaaay" while holding his glowing green Midori necklace up to make my window glow. What a champion. So anyways I ended up getting out of bed and partying with them until about half past 4. We all got out of bed about 2 this afternoon.

Now I'm having a conversation with David about sex...and with all this talk I'm becoming strangely aroused. No comment on that one.

My life is strange.
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"I don't want to fall to pieces,
I just want to sit and stare at you -
I don't want to talk about it.
And I don't want a conversation,
I just want to cry in front of you -
I don't want to talk about it
Cause I'm in love with you."
- Avril Lavigne, 'Fall to Pieces'

Ever heard a song that says everything you have been trying to find the words to say?

Avril seems to have that effect for me. Aside from the fact that I can listen to both of her albums without feeling the need to skip past a song, the good thing about Avril is that she has a plain simple way of saying everything you always felt like saying but didnt know how.

Even if you can't say it directly to the person you want to, at least you would know how to say it if you ever had the guts.

Oh yeah, I sent Jye another text tonight. Since he wasnt coming online tonight I thought I'd send him a nice message to take his mind off assignment stress. This is what i sent -

I'd hand to you the moon and sun,
To let you know that you're the one,
The one who makes life seem worthwhile,
And instead of crying, makes me smile :)
Miss u.

He thinks I'm a true romantic now :D

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I got the new Avril CD today!! I think that's funny considering it was only released at 9:00 this morning :P

But anyways I listened to it, and it's fuckin' amazing! No prizes for guessing who half the songs remind me of though lol.

Speaking of Jye, here's a couple of the messages i have received, just so everybody else thinks he's as sweet as I do :P

About 11:30 last night - "Miss u already" (He only went offline about 2 mins before he sent the message.)

19th May about 6:30 - "aww Jamesy my boy i wish i could make all ur worries disappear, if i could i would"

AWWW. Gotta love my boi. *Accusing stare directed at everyone* No, you can't have him, I want him all for my own lol.

I shall call him squishy, and he shall be mine, and he shall be my squishy!

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